An emotional thank you

An emotional thank you...

This will be my first, and hopefully last partially “debbie- downer” blog post ever.  I think its because, for the first time in my life I have experienced love and heartbreak. Growing up gay, and in the closet until I was 21 years old, I was never really in serious or long term relationships as a teenager. My heart didn’t have the test runs, that heterosexual boys and girls go through. I had just started REALLY dating, and having feelings using my heart muscle when I was in college. However, I never experienced true love until I met my last boyfriend 2 years ago. I have had relationships, and I have met some amazing men, and I have certainly met people who have left their mark on my life! That being said, I have never met anyone who I was whole heartedly head over heels in love with until my last relationship. 

Its so phenomenal to know you are able to fall in love. Once your heart has that feeling you and you know you are able to be IN LOVE, as well as have somebody love you in return, its literally like magic. The world has meaning like its never had and bliss seems like it will be everlasting! I am truly blessed to have experienced true love. What blows my mind is how hard it is to make a relationship work...

Lets be honest, none of us are “NORMAL” and we all have our own individual “demons”  and idiosyncrasies. Mine are happens to be that I am super OCD, and I have a hard time letting go of control. I also have a super stubborn trait that I just cant shake, and once something upsets me its not easy for me to let it go. But the one thing that will forever be my flaw, is my level of sensitivity. I can cry from an episode of Oprah, or from a commercial about restless leg syndrome. 

For those of you you have followed my twitter you have seen my tweet my feelings.  I have clearly been through one the most beautiful relationship one could even wish for and I have even made youtube video’s about being in love, and never letting that love die! So what blows my mind is how happiness  can change so quickly, and how love can suddenly turn into the most painful feeling I have ever had. Now being broken up with the man who will always be the greatest love of my life, I feel something has really tested my faith. It has given me pains in parts of my heart I didnt even know existed, and it has made me think things about love and life that are so negative and dramatic. But what I keep reminding myself is that my last relationship gave me the best 2 years of my life. Being loved that way, and knowing I have the ability to love, is one of the most special things I personally have ever experienced. So for that, I must feel blessed and thankful. 

One of the other things I want to say is that I actually understand WHY people tweet their feelings! Social media has actually been like a sounding board for me in so many ways! But the best part about it, is having the “electronic touch” from my twitter followers, and facebook friends. As creepy as that may sound, Its true. I have been touched by so many people from all over the world, that I have never even met on a face to face basis! Just knowing that someone is listening to me, and then responding with enlightenment, or just a quick note about them caring or understanding, has really helped me get through a hard time! And while I am a long way from recovered,  I do want to say thank you. Thank you to all of the people who “electronically touch me”! 

BRAVO!

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Eva Longoria Get The LOOK

Yesterday I was honored to do Eva Longoria's makeup.
She was attending an event here in nyc. Eva is VERY sweet and has the most naturally BEAUTIFUL look. Her skin is flawless and her lashes are SO LONG and full. Now I see why she has a lash contract with Loreal.

To get the look gave to Eva Longora you will need these products.

Keihls ultra facial moisturizer.  This is a great base for makeup and I use this under all of my clients foundation to achieve a natural glow.

Dior Crystal Nude Matte skin protector. This is a great makeup primer that LOCKs in moisture and holds makeup on all day! its AMAZING

Bobbi Brown Skin Foundation with SPF 15 I use 2 colors one for the highlight areas of the face and one shade deeper for the contour. THIS is my favorite foundation.

Bobbi Brown Corrector in BISQUE You may need to get a lighter or deeper shade to use under your eyes to CANCEL out dark circles, but Bisque is most universal and is a MIRACLE worker!

Bobbi Brown Tinted Eye Brightner This is one of my favorite Eye Shadow Base products. I used it ALL around the eye and on the lid to prime and brighten the eye for shadow and concealer! Its lightweight and the colors are AMAZING


Dior Skin Nude Natural Glow Fresh Powder Makeup THIS is what I use to set my foundation application with a powder brush. I use this on the cheek contour and forehead as well as the neck and around the nose. It gives your skin a perfect "matte glow" while SEALING in makeup. ( I love this makeup by itself all over the face with a powder brush for less coverage and a very flawless natural look)


Dior 5 Shadow Pallet in Rosy Tan #754 I use the top right deepest color from lash to crease and blend out the crease with the bottom left color.
Then I use Bobbi Brown Long Wear eye gel in BLACK in the lash line. BE SURE to apply it in the inner pink part of the top and bottom of the lash line with a flat or angle liner brush. ALL AROUND THE EYE.

I then blend the bottom last out with the bottom left color of the Dior shadow pallet (Rosy Tan 754)

I coated the lashes twice with Loreal Collagene Mascara top and bottom.

To contour Eva's Cheeks I used  Dior Bronze Matte Sunshine and then re-defined the deeper part of the cheek with  Bobbi Brown Matte Bronzer in Natural

Under the eyes to set the concealer I then use Laura Mercier secret camouflage setting powder for under eye.

My favorite eyebrow pencil Dior Styler ultra fine universal pencil was then used to define Eva's already perfect brow shape!

Eva's Blus was Dior Blush in Rose Diamond

On the Lips, I used MAC lip liner in Subculture. This is my FAVORITE nude lip liner.
And finally topped off Eva's Lips in Dior Addict Ultra Gloss in Apricot Cloche #436

I always recommend to use a MAC blot powder in your shade around the NOSE, Under the chin, and T-zone for matte sin in the RIGHT places!